I Give Thanks......

As we near the Thanksgiving Holiday my heart is full. I have so much in my life to be thankful for. I have definately had my moments where I have questioned why and wondered what else could go wrong. How many more things I would have to lose or get taken away because of bad choices (some from years ago). And yet when everytime that I start to feel down or depressed something happens(not always good) and makes me realize that things could be much worse and there are so many things that I have that others dont. Just this past week I watched as a Mother buried her son. Something that I have never had to go thru....knock on wood!! I knew the little boy on a personal level and I have seemed to struggle quite a bit with his passing. I only knew little things about his personal and home life, but from what I knew it wasn't good. He seemed to be raising himself from what I saw and it kinda broke my heart. Then at the funeral his poor Mother was a wreck. Not that I wouldn't be myself being in that situation. However, later that night after talking with my Mom she made some valid points that stuck with me. I didn't sleep last night. I laid in bed with the baby cuddled up next to me and just thought. Rather than think about how sad it was with his passing, or wondering if there was anything that I could have done or said to make a difference in this young boys life, I began thinking about my own life and my family and children. Perhpas the passing of this boy was to teach me a little lesson. I tend to be a screamer (something that I think I got from my Mom) and just yesterday I screamed at my kids for spilling hot red wax on my white carpet. After talking with Mom it made me stop and think. What if something was to happen (God forbid) to my children today?? Would the last memory I had of time with them be me screaming at them for something that doesn't matter?? Is wax on the carpet really more important than my children?? And also the other way around....I don't want my kids to remember me by things that I did or said that didn't matter. Does it really matter if the toys are picked up, or if the laundry is always done, or if the glass of milk got spilled?? It frightens me to think that I may have become the very kind of Mother that just a few days ago I pitied. So, perhaps in all the sorrow and the loss that this Mother is feeling perhaps it will open her eyes a little bit. Maybe with the loss of a son she will change the way she treats or acts around her other kids. At least that is what I have taken from this heart breaking experience. I love my children and my husband more than anything. And I know that this mother also loved her son. But the question still remains....if we love them more than life itself, why do we do the things we do?? And why do we say those things, why do we yell at our kids for things that don't matter? Why are we more worried about our carpets, and our shoes, purses, etc. that we let our kids fall to the bottom rung?? Well, this post wasn't supposed to be like this....it really was gonna be a more upbeat post. However, perhaps I just needed to say some of the things that I have been thinking about this past week. I guess what I am saying is that I AM thankful for my children and that I get the opportunity to be a Mother. And I AM thanful for my husband and for all that he does for me. However, perhaps this year instead of just saying it I will try harded to show my family how thankful I am for them and how much I love and appreciate them and the things that they do for me. I guess our lives are like a book.....you can't go back and change the Once upon a time, but you can change or add as many characters, settings, and plots as you want. And do it so that no matter what you add or even take out you will always have the ending that is something like this....And They ALL lived Happily Ever After!!

Scary Times Ahead......

It is near approaching one of our favorite holidays of the year. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! As a child I used to dream and think all year of what I would dress up as for the cureent candy fest. I would change my mind several times and usually for the last time about 3 days before the event. I never thought about it or realized it, but I am sure that it drove my mother CRAZY, as she always sewed or homemade our costumes. Three days is not much time to make a dress, hat, gown, cape, mask,or anything else we needed. Now as a mother of 3 I am beginning to realize the stress that goes into Halloween costumes. It really makes me appreciate the effort and the late nights that my Mom used to put in on my behalf. I was several princesses or queens, a couple witches,
a hobo, rainbow bright,
dorothy,
and tons of others that I can't even remember.

So in short....I made the boys choose something and stick with it!! The easiest by far was Kadyn since he really doesn't have a choice and can't dislike what I pick! So for this year we have decided to go with the classic Batman(Justyn)
a puppy dog(Kadyn), and for Trentyn....Zorro!!

So to all you parents out there who are stressing out over costumes and candy and children....I laugh in the face of stress!! For here it is....23 days before the big evening....and I am totally prepared!!

Missing my Baby.......

As a Mother of 3 children, I find that my life nothing short of CRAZY most of the time. However, the small moments when my children bring me a weed, or a rock that they found, or when they bring a cold drink from the fridge, and most especially the times they fall asleep next to me on the couch and snuggle with me til I carry them to bed. Those are the moments that I look forward to and get thru the times when I just wanna pull my hair out. Even though I love every moment with my children sometimes I wish I could just have a small break. Well, that opportunity presented itself this weekend. Trentyn was invited to go stay with Uncle Alan and Aunt Linda at their house down in Cedar City. So, we packed his bag and loaded him up in the car and off he went with a smile, a high five, and a little wave. However, 3 days later I am really missing my oldest son!! I don't realize how much he does for me or how much his little smart allec quips always make me laugh.



I even kinda miss his attitude :) He will be there for 2 more days and will be coming home sometime Wednesday evening. I didn't realize how much I would miss him while he was gone.




Perhpas 7 is too young to leave home for 5 days, or perhaps I am just too attached to let go for even 5 days. I miss you Trentyn and can't wait to see you again on Wednesday. Hope you are having TONS of fun!! XOXO

Funny things kids say..........

So I haven't posted in FOREVER!! I didn't realize how much crazier life would be with three kids instead of just two. As I sit here at 11:00PM (pretty much the only quiet time I have) contemplating my life I can't say that I am anything but content. My children are wonderful and are always doing something cute. Our latest addition to the family Kadyn loving known as "Taters" or "Tater Tots" is already crawling. Justyn loves to watch him and laughs everytime Kadyn puts somethingin his mouth. As we were all talking about nicknames, Justyn got this deep, thoughtful look on his face. He realized that he didn't come up with anyones nickname. He has loving decided that we should call the baby "Quesadilla" Where that came from I don't know. Trentyn quickly agreed with him, but then asked what about "taters" ? So now we have Trentyn, Justyn, and Tater Quesadilla.

Do Superhero's really wear capes??

So, these last few weeks I have been really bad about updating. Too much to do to get ready for the new baby. However, my family has done some fun things together and they never cease to amaze me with the things that they do. Sometimes I am close to a heart attack watching what the boys will do, yet they pull it off and come away feeling VICTORIOUS!!

I am always so proud of the things that they do. They are constantly doing things for me lately and making me laugh.

My husband is always goofing around and trying to make sure that I don't get to down trodden as I count the final days til the baby comes. My boys (Matt included) are my hero's.


So, do hero's wear capes? I know that mine don't, and rarely do they wear shirts as well. They don't have secret identities. Everyone knows who they are, but I bet very few know how much they do and what they mean to me. They way they "save" me all the time and constantly remind me of the important things in life. Money and possesions may come and go, but for me, the HERO'S make it all worth while.

Updated soccer stats.....

(Justyn was on Camera Duty)


So, haven't written about our last couple of soccer games. Our team is doing AWESOME this year. In fact, I think that some of the other coaches don't like us very much. We have won every game except for the first one which was called on account of snow. In the last 3 games Trentyn has scored 8 goals and if feeling pretty good about himself. Our team has been working on passing and helping each other out so that everyone is able to score at least once during the game. This last game was the first one where each player was able to kick it home and score a goal. It was awesome to watch 5 1st graders playing together and helping each other out.

A quick soccer update!

So, yesterday we had another soccer game. This time the weather was gorgeous, our whole team was able to make it, and we walked away with a VICTORY!! Unoffically we won since we dont technically play in a league that keeps score. The final was 10-1.
Our team played AWESOME. They figured out passing and that working together had better results than trying to be a one man team. Trentyn had 3 of the goals and he was pretty excited about that.